waiting

Here I am,  talking to these walls again

Telling them my secrets

Hoping they won’t spill them on the floor

So I’d have to clean them

Because I’d leave them there for seasons

Hoping they’d go away on their own

Just like I did at eighteen with a silence

I became an island, desolate and isolated

So I sat there waiting, and waiting, and waiting

For change

Something different is bound to come 

my way

But I’m so stuck in the same place I was

Yesterday

And everyday before that 

Wishing that you'd come back

Don’t know what, day of the week it is 

Trying hard to find some bliss

But I’m failing 

Don’t have much to do,  I’m not complaining

But at some point this train will be derailing

So I sit here waiting, and waiting, and waiting

So I sit here waiting, and waiting, and waiting 

Still waiting, just waiting, I’m waiting 

But waiting is changing nothing 

I can’t keep on numbing 

Stop waiting, and waiting, and waiting

For change

Nothing different will ever come my way

If I stay stuck in the same place I was 

Yesterday 

And everyday before that

Wishing for myself back