joy grief relief

A chapter bookended

By tears

Joy 

Grief

Relief 

The person I would have been

If you didn’t save me

Thankful for the in-between

Blinked and missed

All that was lived 

A broken pause button

Stuck on fast forward

Onward and onward 

Time stops for all

But not at once 

It’s a shutter

Speed 

Capture 

And gone 

1779 photos 

4885 days 

All of the ways

Imprinted on my memory

Somehow not enough

I continue with a flutter

In my chest 

Lost in a thought

Lost in nothingness 

Heaviness that drags

Down

Down

Down

And further 

Until I surface somewhere new

And the thought of you no longer stings 

But brings 

Joy 

Grief

Relief