stuck

Got a little wild,

Running through my mind 

Harvesting what I had left

Of adolescent wiles 

Now I’m stuck at the fault line

You’re far on the other side

Giving all I have 

And getting nothing back

Just a barren land that

Withered at your command

And I’m holding onto crumbs 

Fists becoming numb

How do I begin again?

When the only truth is: all ends

Spending all the time I have

On this brick in my hand 

Trying to find a semblance of

The girl that I had been

A hopeful optimism 

That’s slipped far out of my grip

Sleepwalking through my days

In a never ending maze

Of my own design 

With twist and turns

That make me 

Contort into another life  

How do I get back?

Start anew, while stuck in this trap?

Time is 

dragging on

I’m hanging on 

To something that’s already gone 

Again I do it 

Again I lose it 

So how can I just stop?

How do I move on?