slot machine

I bargain with time like a slot machine

Mindlessly losing cents:

It all adds up to nothingness 

But I am fascinated by the blinking lights

The magnificent dance of colours

The endless what-ifs 

Anything could happen

Probability aside 

I might get exactly what I want 

Least likely, though I try 

Cent after cent adding a few more

What is all the nonsense for?

Chasing possibilities 

Lack of guarantees 

Wallet emptying 

Thoughts dampening 

Lights blinding 

Time unwinding